I almost didn’t begin this day’s Morning Pages or blog post.
I have a bad habit of getting derailed after a few days into a new personal habit. The first few days are easy, and then–boom–I hit a brick wall where something gets me off-track and then I say to myself “fuck it” and give up on that day.
Not today. The Resistance can suck it!
When I start to feel the pressure mounting from having too many irons in the fire, I’ve noticed a predictable series of events that lead to me getting off-track I call the cycle of suck. Here’s how it goes for me:
The Cycle of Suck
- “Man, I’ve got a lot of stuff to do today.”
- “I’m actually feeling kind of run-down today. I wonder if I’m getting sick?”
- “It’s going to be difficult to pull myself out of the social media nosedive my productivity has taken today.”
- “I wonder what’s new on YouTube?”
Nope! Noppity-nope! Not gonna do it, this time! I’ve gotta find a way to break through.
So I’m sitting at my desk at the home office with my candle burning and with Tom Waits in my ears. I might be incomprehensibly babbling on my pages, but I’m going to have three pages of incomprehensible babbling, dammit!
Addendum – I did finish – the first page was most of what you read here, and the other two pages were me whinging about something in my personal life. That will not the subject of a blog post today!